Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

You know why God created gap between fingers?
So that at some day the one who is made for you, comes and fill those gaps by holding your hand forever!
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

爱

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情， 只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！
当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分

What is love?

Love is like a tattoo? It is so beautiful yet painful?

Welcome... Journey start again...

Welcome again... your presence had brighten up the dull town again... full of hopes! Wish to spend some precious moment! Let make it the magic moment in our life! Cheers!

I Miss you.....

It's been dull in town since you left, Think of you, I feel bereft

You have flown away to another land, to continue your pastures and life.

Here i sit..... next to where you sit, driving alone, looking out the window. The day is drab and dreary. I think of you to console myself , I try to be a little cherry, but really its just mighty tough. Not having you around, I miss you more than I can say, and feel so low, so sad and so down!

Silently the sweet flowers bloom, Silently sunlight fills the room, Silently you went away, Silently I pine away.

As I walk the noisy street, conscious of my hurrying feet, seeking there for direction, wondering when we will meet? My heart is heavy with unshed tears, my mind is crowded with unknown fears.......... Parting is just another cross to bear, along life's changing way, and you must really know I care, as i grind along each day......

Wish i were somehow there with you, To smell the roses of some fairer hue, to see the way the honey bees siting...... to see you....

I just miss you....... every moments!

That life?

Do you know how i feel now?
I just spoke to you..... at times i really felt so happy to receive your call. but... at times. my heart broken into pieces.
Anyway, life still need to move on. And remember our agreement? i will still carry on with me, move on.. and be there for you whenever u need some one.

God is So Good!

Since the day i met you, the feeling of missing you is getting stronger. It had been a while since i last mising some one so badly.
There was pleasure in the pathless woods, There was rapture on the lonely shore, By the deep sea, with music in its roar, I love now nature less, it just so glad that i met you.
You are just like a flower, So sweet and so fair. I look at you and love touches me like a prayer.
I remember the day when i met you, and now i feel a happiness each and everytime i think of you.
I am trying so hard to control myself. To control my feeling.... to control not falling into it.. to control...Alot of time i just lost of control, lost my sense of direction....so miserable. and i realized that i am in big troubles.
My close friend christina told me, god is so good. So i ask god, if we are not destiny to be together, why HE send this angel to me? To protect me? To comfort me? To motivate me? To challenge me? To???? So many ???
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TIRAMISU

tiramisu - an Italian dessert consisting of layers of sponge cake soaked with coffee and brandy or liqueur layered with mascarpone cheese and topped with grated chocolate

hope you will always remember the taste of the tiramisu.

Some one......

You are just like some one send by god to me. You are just some one that i dream off all this while. some one that can really melted my heart! it had been a while that i never had this feeling. It was so sweet.
We met in this crossed junction of life, yet i know that we are not destiny to be together, just may be can be very good friend.
Anyway, thanks so much for the sweet and wonderful memory. It will always be engraved in my heart.
Faith makes all things possible, Action makes all things work, and Love make all things beautiful!

My latest album

Watched this movie lately, found it very nice and really meaningful. Sometime we just need to ask ourselve, do you really understand what is love?
I had been falling in love deeply before. been together with some one for many years before we really realized that we are not suitable. Glad that we still maintain as good friend.

The Secret of Love
The first secret - the power of thought
Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change out beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize her when you meet her.

The second secret - the power of respect
You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself, "What do I respect about myself?" To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself "What do I respect about them?"

The third secret - the power of giving
If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! It is not like a business where you count the feedback. The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

The fourth secret - to power of friendship
To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other's eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grow. If you want to bring love into relationship, you must first being friendship.

The fifth secret - the power of touch
Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relatinships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

The sixth secret - the power of letting go
If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go ou our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. "Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life."

The seventh secret - the power of communication
When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: "I Love You". Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see them. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and.... why are you waiting?

The eighth secret - the power of commitment
If you want to have love in abundance, you must be commited to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationship. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

The ninth secret - the power of passion
Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone, it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt possionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same, all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

The tenth secret - the power of trust
Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the otther person feels trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, "Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?" f the answer is "no", think carefully before making a commitment.

找一个懂你的人

要找到真爱，便要找一个懂你的人。
这个人也许並不是十全十美，但因为他懂你；
你就认为他是十全十美的，就是这么一个懂字。

懂是什么？
当你遇到挫折时，他不说一句损你尊严的话
当你意气用事时，他绝不迁就，而会娓娓解说事理给你听
当你心情不好时，他绝不和你一般见事，而大吵大闹
当你远离千里，难得见面时，他也深信你
当你愉快时，他也愉快而且会告诉年你
当你烦恼时，他也烦恼但不会轻易告诉你

懂，是需要多少的了解，多少的体谅，多少爱心
要找一个懂你的人，也许很难，但要有信心
找一个懂你的人，也期许自己做一个懂他的人

聪明的人，喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，卻失去了自己的心
傻气的人，喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，卻得到了别人的心

Dishes

When i am stressed up with work, i would spend some time preparing some nice foods for lunch or dinner. Here are some of the dishes that i prepared.

爱。。。。

爱是无私的吗？爱真的有这么伟大吗？
曾几何时，我曾经因为爱，觉得人生很美好，很美丽！也曾因为爱觉得人生很痛苦，很残酷，很丑陋！
爱一个人就是要全心全意的付出，但有时单方面的付出是很累的！
一个人的街道，有时真的很寂寞，很孤单！夜深人静的那种心情并不好受。
你孤单吗？寂寞吗？
很多时候我是多么的无助，也很无奈！我一直记得父亲告诉我，无论遇到什么挫折，他一定会在旁默默地支持与鼓励我的。虽然您已经不在了，我一定会记得的！很多时候真的很希望您们一直可以在我身旁爱我，关心我。。。一个人的我真的过得好累！好想你们！

Hard decision

you used to be someone that is so special to me! you are some one that had really driving me crazy for loving you until i lost my direction in life. i had ever think that i can even gave up my life just for you.... how stupid i am!

those bad feeling came back again lately. i don know how it happened. it just came back naturally... but i think this time i am more mature to handle it.

it took me a few days to think about it. What am i actually waiting for? What am i looking for?

...........

I made up my mind. I made one of the most difficult decision in my life. I decided to totally get this feeling out! it is really not easy, indeed it is really hard. But when i think back all the up and down i had gone through for the pass few months, i have to do so.

.........

人生的平衡点！

I found this very meaningful, just want to share.....

Dreaming.......

I dreamt of you. You are as real as in real life.
A lot of times when I am lost and struggled in life, you always be there for me. You are the one who encouraged me the most, guided me and giving me those inspiration and motivational advices, to keep my heart contented.
A lot of times when I fall, you will definitely be there for me. You comfort me with your warmth arm, telling me that not the end of the world.
No one is perfect in this world, so do I. I always learnt from my previous mistakes; letting the experiences be the lesson of my life, improve to be a better person.
Remember what you always telling me? The most beautiful future will always depend on the need for forgetting the past. You will not be able to go from the past in life as long as you will not have overcome the errors of the past and all that hurt you.
I will always remember that, and live the life in full and always smile in sprite of difficult times.
You always have a choice when you wake up early in the morning, either to be happy or sad. When a door of the happiness is closed, another opens, but us, we continue to look at the closed door and we do not attach importance to that which we have just opened! Remember you always have the choice!

Days........

Days of sorrow, days of encouragement, days of disappoinments, days of hopes....
i had been sick for the passed one week. A signal from my body that i need some rest. Some changes lately in my life. I am trying hard to adjust and fine tune myself. I am just a normal human being with feeling and yet sometime things are just out of my control. You asked me why i have to do so? you said i will burst out one day. for your info, i am doing pretty well and moving on well too
I think i had been worry too much for you. guessed is time for me to just let it be, don think too much on behalf. Your life is in ur own hand! You will never know how bad i felt.
The new journey just started. I just need to be strong and keep moving!
Life is Beautiful!

The 4th Year!

Times flies, it turned into the 4th year.
You came into my life 4 years ago.
It might doesnt mean anything to you, but it really meant a lot to me.
At a certain point of my life, i felt so mesirable without you. You had brought the best ever happiness and memory for me, and yet u had brought the worst to me too.
When we moving on in our life, the footprints that we had left behind will always be engraved in my heart! Cheers~!

Turned 30

Turned 30 few days ago... Suddenly felt that i am old already. I am still searching around, looking for my direction in life.
I wish to have a new chapter in my life. I wish i can build up my career, and i wish my dream will come true one day!

We both worrying about you

I received a call from some one dear to me this morning
We are both worried about you. We just want you to know that you are very very close to us. We care for you, we worrying about you......

You always have the choice

In life, everyone always have the choice. You can either choose to be happy or sad, choose to loved or been loved, choose to let go or keep waiting.......
Decide for yourself and move forward!

LOVE.... Final

" 如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?
如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?
是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?
天下所的情人.愿你们能珍惜眼前的人,不要失去后才懂得珍惜...

LOVE continue....

我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。 可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。 假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？ 其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。 或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣， 但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发 觉而已呢？ 所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！ 他或许已经等你很久喽！
当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。 所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来， 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求， 而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

LOVE

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜， 总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担， 你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你， 不论做什么事情， 只要能一起，就是好的， 但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深， 你开始发现了对方的缺点， 於是问题一个接著一个发生， 你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避， 有人说爱情就像在捡石头， 总想捡到一个适合自己的， 但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？ *她适合你，那你又适合她吗? 其实，爱情就像磨石子一样， 或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意， 但是记住人是有弹性的， 很多事情是可以改变的， 只要你有心、有勇气， 与其到处去捡未知的石头， 还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？ 很多人以为是因为感情淡了， 所以人才会变得懒惰。 错！ 其实是人先被惰性征服， 所以感情才会变淡的

I want to tell u something,,,,

I want to tell you something
It's been lurking in my mind,
I've tried to throw it all away
But i couldn't, and I find......
Instead of it disappearing
It has stubbornly deepened
And I am sad to say right now
The situation has truly worsened.
What i really want to say
Is that my heart has fallen deep
And try as hard, as hard I may
My feelings can no longer keep,
My mind is saturated with you,
My heart wants you so bad
I'm sorry but you have to know
I'm feeling miserable and sad.
It would be great if we were friends
If you felt you could not love me
And please don't ask me to pretend
That surely would just kill me.
.....................

Dad, I'm missing you!

Dad, here i sit, alone in my room, looking out the window

The day is drab and dreary

I think of u and mum to console myself

I try to be a little cherry,

But really its just mighty tough

Not having both of you around

I miss you both more than I can say

And feel so low, so sad, so down!

Silently the sweet flowerw bloom

Silently sunlight fills the room

SIlently..........

I still can remember vividly the day, 18-12-1997.

I called to chat with you that afternoon, and you were away that evening itself.

How cruel, why?

I just want to take this opportunity to wish you HAPPY FATHER's DAY! I miss you alot!

I am confused!

Ever since that....

I don't want to be in love, again,

Not after last time, not after such pain,

But I'm unable to resist the loneliness.....

When the night comes, and when i am alone in the room.....

I don't want to get hurt so soono once more,

But without love what is life for?

Yet, i am so worry some one will break my fragile heart again....

It;s already been broken in too many parts!

I am confused!

When i see you again..

When i see you again.. i felt the pain. i realized i am yet to forget about you. You always in my mind.
530

u... someone who is so important to me...

When i was chatting with you just now, i keep dropping my tears. i am not sure why.

You might say that i still holiding on, some one may said that why i still cant let go.

Honestly, i already let go and move on.

i tears off becos first, i do still miss you a lot. and i am worry about you too. it is pain when you are worry so much about some one, but you do not know wat you can do, it is so helpless.

i sincerely wish you good luck and all the best in your future undertaking....

The four things

In life, there are four things that we shouldnt break, that is TRUST, PROMISE, RELATION & HEART. This is because when they break, they don't make noise but pains a lot.

5 months....

it has been 5 months... u came into my dream last night. it was really sweet... i was hugging u..

anyway... i had been moving on very well lately. that life.

i feel good to see you living on happily also.

you are always in my mind...

i just want to share this.....

i find this is so meaningful.. and i just want to share with you.... this is one of the comments in my blog.

"有些东西，有些事，有些人，你越想把他忘记，你就是一世都忘不了。有时候，不再对这些东西那么执著，试着去放开，反而心里也会好过一点。一段受伤的感情，就好像伤口一样，会痛，但总会有痊愈的一天。但当伤口差不多完全痊愈的时候，请不要再去撕开那些疤，不然伤口永远不会好起来。当然，伤口痊愈了，总会留下疤痕。那是个感情的记号，可能你会很不喜欢这个疤痕。但你可以把它当成一个记录，一个警惕。或者乐观一点，它也可以是一个装饰品，一个刺青。别再用工作麻醉自己，因为累坏的，始终是自己的身体，别人是感受不到的。要放开，真的不是那么容易；但如果你真的做到了，那就是垮了好大的一步。往后的日子，就可以轻松地面对了。"

When you are alone.....

What will you be think when you are alone.....
When i am alone... i will think a lot.
Lately... i have been really tight up with my works. There are days i need to work till 12 a.m.... and i work 7 days a week. Feel so exhausted...
A good friend from BW called me up few days ago. She is facing some relationship problem. It is about a third party between her and his bf. That third party is her bf's ex... and now they broke up... she has been very very sad.. asking me what she should do now? Honestly i have no idea... i am a failure in my own relationship also. what i can say is that times heal. trying to let go and move forward. That is the reality of life. You just need to go and face it yourself. No one can help you but you yourself.

A full stop.... my chapter of love story

Every chapter in the book always start with an introduction and a conclusion and summary.
It is really hard for me to make such a decision.
It started 3 years 9 months ago. and i think is time to put a full stop in this chapter of my love story, which is long overdue, and start a brand new life.
Life still moving on without you around me.
May u and me will find our true happiness!

Happy Mother's Day!

A mum is a rose whose petals are soft

A mum is a lily whose stem is tall and strong

A mum is a person who is never wrong

A mum is a person you should love forever

Trust her, believe her and never doubt her

How i wish mum still around, and i can spend this special day with her.

14 years ago.. that was the last mother's day that i celebrated.

I baked cake for serena's mum and san sen. how i wish i can bake it for my mum too. miss her.

Life go on... Life is beautiful

When you are down and lost....

When you are down and lost.... you must keep telling yourself, tomorrow will be a better day!

Understand, appreciate and love ourselve, not in the sens of indulgence, but to understand that we have shortcoming, to accept that we have weaknesses, and that will enable us to open up, and reach up for help, and that is the very important step toward regaining your self-esteem, your confident on the road to recovering. We must that give up easily no matter how owful we might failed.

I will live everyday to a full, with the positive happy attitude. I hope you will also! Take care.... 530

What to buy for HER?

This weekend is mother day. Read through an article in the newspaper, discussing about what to buy for your lovely mum during this special day.

How nice if my mum still around and i can spend this special day with her.

My mum passed away 14 years ago. I was doing my form 3 that year. It was just like yesterday. Suddenly i miss her alot.

During the discussion, there are ppl said they will buy branded handbag, skin care products, jewellry.......i think the best present is to spend a day with your lovely mum. and spend more time with them. appreciate them when they are still around.

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!

Life?

Life is keep moving and moving....suddenly when i was driving this afternoon, i feel rather sad and lost. But no matter how, i know i need to keep moving and changing myself to be a better person. I need some guidance. I need some care.......

Dream! Dream! Dream!

As human, there are times we prefer to live in dream rather than reality.
You came into my dream yesterday night. It was so sweet and wonderful, yet i still need to wake up and life in reality!
It is always dream that keep us motivate to achieve our objective in life!

What is important in a relationship?

We had a good things, didnt we? And then we parted cause you wanted to be free! No matter what happened, I'll always remember your sweet smile, and everyonce in a very long while. I always think about the good times and the days we had. It will always be the sweet memories engraved deep inside my heart.

We did so many happy things together.... and i always thought that we could go on like that forever. But those days are fone now, it seems, we're down to earth now, not living in a dream, be realistic.

Do you sometimes think of me,

and the happy times we spent together?

Fo you occasionally dream

Of all the things that might have been?

What do you think is important in a relationship?

Trust? Respect? Care? Sincerity? ..........................

A good friend of mine Poong just broke up few days ago. He has been so down and depressed. Spent some time sharing my experiences with him, talked to him..... And i think it is really important that you say things out when you are down and depressed. Don keep it with yourself. For every problem, there is always a solution out there. You always have a choice.

I know talk is always easy. You really need some time to really forget someone and move on. Moving to the right track in life and for the better future.

I am happy that he felt much better now. Keep it up my friend. You can make it!

We only live once! Live to the fullest!

What am i looking for in my life?

I keep thinking this few days, what am i looking for in my life?

I am already 30s this year, and i am still looking for my direction in life.

Yesterday i had lunch with some one very close to me. She spend some time sharing a lot of life experiences with me. She made me realised a lot. Thanks SanSen

I am spending 7 days a week now in lecturing and giving home tuition. I am not too sure is this what i want in my life. Am i going to do this for the rest of my life? But at least at this particular moment of time, i can earn a living and keep surviving.

I am trying to make myself contented. I am going to gym almost everyday for some work out too. And i hope to keep my mind as fresh as possible. Just don think about the past and just look forward, and looking forward for the better future.

I have a dream. I always wish that i can run my own businesses. If i have ever given an opportunity, i wish i cna run a small tuition center, namely E&E Tuition Center, and runninng a small cafe at the same time, namely Magic Moment...... It is always in my dream and i am working very hard towards it.

Today i went for a dinner at Jogoya with a close friend. He is some one who really spending a lot of time with me lately and had help me alot gone through the down turn in my life. Thanks a lot my dear friend.

I would like to take this opportunity to thanks my dear brother in singapore for being worried about me all this while. Sorry if i ever made u disappointed. I am moving on well now and i will be a better person in the near future. Thanks so much. I agree with you, life is about how you going to colour it. and how you want it to be. I will make it as colourful and as wonderful as possible.

The 4th Month!

Great day to remember. And keep moving on.

Tomorrow will be a better day for u and me!

Confusion?

Life is always full of confusion.

Everyday be thankful for what you have and who you are. This is just a simple request!

Even though I keep my eyes closed against the morninglight as long as possible. Appreciate that I can see, many are blind.

Even though I huddle in my bed and put off rising. Appreciate that I have the strength to rise.There are many who are bedridden.

Even though the routine of my job often is monotonous. Appreciate for the opportunity to work. Thereare many who have no job.

Even though I grumble and bemoan my fate from day today and wish my circumstances were not so modest. Appreciate that, that is my life......

Have i let go?

Talk is always easy. I keep telling myself to let go, but seem like it is really so hard.

Every morning, when i opened my eye, i always ask myself the same question again and again, have i let go?

You might think that it is so easy. And i know in your mind, you will ask, why until now you still cant let go? Can you just let go and move on. Think positively and live happily.

I wish i can be you. I wish i can .......

............ many days, i have just waited. Waiting for you to call me, to ask me how am i? to ask me out for a meal, for a drink, for a chit chat. but your name, your ring tone and your picture just never appear on my phone.

A lot of time, i am trying to call you. I press your number, and i hang up... press again and hang up again.... and my just keep beating extremely fast..... ended i didnt call you.

If i can live forever in my dream, this will be my only wish. I always hope that the dream will never end. Cause every night i will just saw you in my dream. so happy. but i know no matter how, i still need to live back to reality, keep breathing and keep moving.

It have been many days i didnt drop my tears already..... but when i am writing this blog... i don know why, my tears keep dropping. I miss u so so much.

Good to know that you have moving on very well and live happily. Cheers!

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How do you feel when you are missing some one so so much?

I guessed you really have no idea how much i miss you. My arm missed holding you. My eyes missed your smile. My ears missed the sound of your laugh........

How i wish i can be just beside you now, be with you and holding on you. How i wish i can gently touch your face, look into your eye and tell you how much i love you.

I missed being held by you. I missed being near you. I missed you so so much!

So close yet so strange.....

I met up with some one so special to me in my life for dinner few days ago.

I was rather happy and sad. It is a mix feeling.

Happy because got chance to have dinner with this person. Used to be so so close to me. Yet now the feeling is so strange. We are like so close yet so strange. Sad to this happened. But wat to do? This is indeed the fact in life. The real fact that some time we have no choice to reject but to accept it.

Good to see you moving on well also. I just want to see you live happily.

Destination of Life.... Airport!

In Life, everyone will have their own dream to achieve, own destination to reach!
Life is just like an airport! Everyone come from different countries, different places, but with one of the same objective, that is to reach their own different destination!
Where is my destination? What am i looking for in life? I really need to find back to old TJ, which is very motivated, optimistic...........
Come back TJ and move on... don waste any more time!