you used to be someone that is so special to me! you are some one that had really driving me crazy for loving you until i lost my direction in life. i had ever think that i can even gave up my life just for you.... how stupid i am!
those bad feeling came back again lately. i don know how it happened. it just came back naturally... but i think this time i am more mature to handle it.
it took me a few days to think about it. What am i actually waiting for? What am i looking for?
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I made up my mind. I made one of the most difficult decision in my life. I decided to totally get this feeling out! it is really not easy, indeed it is really hard. But when i think back all the up and down i had gone through for the pass few months, i have to do so.
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