That particluar moment.....

Have you ever tried when your mind is totally empty and you do not know what you should do the next moment? the next minutes and the next seconds?
It is always that particular moment in life that really drive you crazy. You will think of doing things crazily, and so miserably.
It is the moment whether you will awake from the darkness and see some brightness or you cant. It is the moment that every second in life seem to be so precious or worthless.
It is the moment that ............

A Brand New Start!

I really need to find a brand new start!A brand new start in life! A brand new start of getting used to the changes and a brand new start for accepting all the real facts in life! It is always not easy to do so at all!
Life is all about learning! If you think Life is Beautiful, be with it! and let the beautiful life always surround us!

Don let the past determine the future!

For those people who following my blogs, they might say this, how many times you want to mentioned the same things again and again, LET GO? you wont la!
Undeniable that i had mentioned this countless time. I am tired about it also! Talk is always easy! i always said i want to let go, but when come to practice, it is so hard, it is not easy.
I have had many countless sleepless nights and same to the person who is close to me. Sorry!
After years, months, weeks, days and nights, hours and minutes, i have really a deep thought lately. Although i don think i had come out with the best solution for myself, but at least at the moment it is better than before. I think i should not allow my past to affect the present because it is present that determines my futures.
Either your mind is controlling your soul or some time we will have to let the soul to control our mind?

Do you know how the feeling is?

Do you know how the feeling is when you get cheated?
Do you know how the feeling is when you get so lost in life?
Do you know how the feeling is when you get so sick in life?
Do you know how the feeling is when you get into big troubles but so helpless?

At first..... i keep crying and dropping my tears at late night. and lately i found out that it doesn't help to solve the problems. Indeed it spoiled my mood, it spoiled my days, and i am getting so mad and so crazy and hated myself so much...... it is not worth for all this.

It is either you want to continue to have this kind of life. Or you have to changed. Don worry too much any more. Just changed. and move on.

Hope life will be better for me from now on.

I felt so weak.....

This two days, i felt so weak. I cant sleep well at night due to the attacks. Indeed it is quite pain.
The harder you try, the more suffering you feel. Talk is always easy. When you said let go, what does that mean? How do you measure it? It is like when you are in love with some one, how do you measure who love who more? It is very subjective.
When you reached a point where you might loose everything including your life, then only you will know how to appreciate things around you. Things that you might have neglected all this while, things that you might not remember, things that......... That is life!
Some one told me this, if that some one don appreciate what you are doing, why you want to keep suffering?..... and i will said That is life!
Hai............ so tired!

I am so confused.... LIfe?

I felt so confused lately. There are things in life that really out of our hand. A lot of things we cant control it. Yet if you hold it too tight, it will get rid off easily.
Lately i have been bothered by a few things. I am so worried about myself, my career, my health, my future. And i am very worried about a close friend of mine also. I wish that this friend of mine will start to stay focus and work hard! At the same time, i am worried about a dear brother and friend in Singapore also. All the best to him. Although i seldom keep in touch closely with him, but i do really care a lot about him. I knew that he has been bothered by a lot of problems lately. Tomorrow is a better day! cheers!

An important dates, that good to remember!

There is an important friend, who came into my life on 14th August 2004. Time flies... as at today, 14th March 2008, we have known each other for 3 years and 7 moths. Gosh....... really fast.
I would like to take this opportunity to thanks this special person in my life. Thanks for all the sweet memories and happiness that you had brought into my chapter of life. To you, i might just someone that crossed your life, i might just be some one that..... but to me, you are really some one that i can get closed with. Some one that i wish to share all my happiness and sadness with, some one that i care so much, some one that i ........ i know that, we have to look forward. Don always this about that past. Trust me, i have grown up, grew to be more mature, and learned how to let go.
No matter what is going to happened in the future, i really wish to see you happy! and i want to see your success in your life too. Keep up the good work and keep moving! What you need is just be focus!

Brother, I am okie......

A very dear friend and close brother called up yesterday. Thanks for the call brother. I know that you do concern a lot about me all this while. Sorry if i had created a lot of misunderstanding before this. All this while i always think LOVE is everything in my life and is the only Chapter of my life also. But i realized that i am wrong. LOVE is only one of the Chapter in our life. I think i have done my very best to make it one of the most important and wonderful chapter of my life. So is enough and i need to continue to the new chapter in my life.
I have a deep thought lately about myself and my life. I find that i need to change and i need to move on really fast, cos i am not young anymore. Set my priority right!

I want to say something about 08-03-2008

8th of March.... some date which is good to remember.
10 years ago, 8th of March 1998, my sister got married. Happy Anniversary my dear sister!
Wanted to write this on 8th of march 2008, but cant make it as i was in Genting.
Went there a Tsai Chin concert, and it was really a good one. I enjoyed so much, and it make me realized a lot in that 2.5 hours concert.
There is always the moment in life that you felt so lost, and so miserable. Don stop your tears as it is. Look forward and move on. Things will definitely be better.
Face the reality and move on. when u love some one, you want to see them live happily also! good luck!

It's Going to Be Okay.... Just Hang in There

It's going to be okay. Just give things a little time. And in the meantime, keep believing in myself, take the best of care, and try to put things in perspective, and remember what's most important, and don't forget that someone cares. When you fell down, look at the bright side., search for the positive side, learn the lessons to be learned, and find way through to the inner qualities. The strength, the smiles, the wisdoms, and the optimistic outlook that are such special parts of you. I do miss u a lot, and it's going to be okay!

Butter Cake

The first cake that i baked. hehe! Butter cake!
Thanks to Hwee Mean for the recipe. Indeed it is quite tasty.
Need to practice more to make it perfect.

Getting busier....

Getting busier lately with more classes. Every night reached home quite late and after bathe will just go to bed.
Life seem to be more meaningful, at least is more contented. No free time to think about others stuffs.
Moving on and be focus! and i hope you will also!
cheers!

Life is short! Appreciate it!

Life is beautiful.... but some time it is short too!
This few days, get in touch back with one of my secondary school friend, i think we have not been keep in touch for the pass ten years.
We have been chatting lot. We shared a lot. And apparently she is very good in baking and shared a lot about her experience. Out of my surprise, she told me that one of her brother passed away last year because of cancer. Really shock and sad. Life is really short. Appreciate it when you still can hold it.

Sweet Memory

Chances or opportunities are given to you by yourself, is not by others.
There have been times where i keep asking for the last chance, give me one more chance, i can be better, give me one more chance to proof it to you.
Lately, i realized that if you don even give a chance to yourself, who will, who care?
A blossom flower will only last for a few days, it wont be last forever. A sweet memory in any relationship is always so sweet no matter where you go, and when you think about it. Let it be engraved in the heart and grow in the heart.
I need to grow from here......